Mother's Day

I love Mother's Day each year.  Not because I think I am the most amazing mother, I know I have so much room for improvement. But I love it because I get to celebrate the fact that I am a mother to these amazing kids.  I grew up with a mother that hated Mother's Day.  So bad in fact that it was so dreaded because she was so depressed and hard to be around on that day because she felt so inadequate. It makes me sad just to think about it. I am glad that I don't feel the same way. I love this day because even though I make so many mistakes I know I am giving it my all.  I know that I literally put everything I am into being a mom.

  Its no secret that it's all I ever wanted to do. When I was in second grade we had a big program and spent a lot of time on what we wanted to be when we grew up.  Everyone made these large self portraits of themselves as what they wanted to be and then our parents came and we had a program and each got up and talked about our picture.  I drew myself as a mom holding a baby. Nowadays little girls would probably be shamed for that, but luckily I wasn't.  So everyday I try and find that joy in my life because I am living out my dream. 

 I loved getting to go to Annie's preschool mother's day tea. It was such a fun little thing, she sang cute songs and made me the sweetest present. I have had many mothers day teas in my day and each one is just as special.

 I just adore my life and these kids that I call mine. It is sometimes completely soul crushing and beyond difficult but at the same time it is the most wonderful and rewarding thing.  It's crazy how it can contain both the highest highs and the lowest lows.  I still wouldn't have it any other way. I am loving it more every day too with my kids as they are getting older. They are just so fun to be around and we have so much fun together.

I was so lucky this year because I got to go to a Mother's Day Tea for Russ as well. I am so grateful that they didn't fall on the same day so that I could go to both. I loved seeing my boy sing to me. I am so grateful that I have these great kids that I get to call mine.